Welcome back to Unfiltered Diaries—the safe, anonymous space where we unpack the stuff we usually keep buried. This next entry hit deep because it’s honest, raw, and something many of us have felt but struggled to name.
To the woman who’s battling herself, questioning her choices, and feeling numb—we see you. And we wrote this just for you.
Diary Entry:
“I have been battling with myself lately and I’m starting to question my own decisions and choices. I have been so hurt by so many I don’t trust anymore and I’m numb and silent—it feels like depression creeping back in.”
— Anonymous
First of all—thank you for saying this out loud. That takes real strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
Sometimes the quietest moments, when you feel numb and disconnected, are actually your soul waving a little flag asking for gentleness. And you’ve been through a lot—it makes complete sense that your guard is up. When people hurt you over and over, trust starts to disappear—not just in them, but in yourself too. That’s not weakness. That’s what it looks like to survive.
But here’s the truth: the fact that you’re still battling, even if it’s messy, confusing, or exhausting, means you haven’t given up on yourself completely. And that matters. That means you’re still in there. Still holding on. Still hoping, even if it’s quiet.
Please don’t carry that weight alone. Whether it’s a friend, a therapist, a journal, or this exact space right here—let it out, even if it’s just in whispers. You’re allowed to feel tired. You’re allowed to not have it all figured out. And you are allowed to come back to yourself slowly, gently, and without guilt.
If you feel depression creeping back in, please don’t wait for it to swallow you whole before reaching out. Here are a few real, judgment-free places to start:
🧠 Mental Health Resources You Can Check Out (Right Now):
- Therapy for Black Girls – A space dedicated to mental health and healing for Black women and girls. Includes a therapist locator and podcast for support.
- Open Path Collective – Offers affordable therapy (as low as $30/session) for people without insurance.
- Mental Health America (MHA) – You can take a free, anonymous mental health screening here and get connected to helpful resources.
- 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline – You can call or text 988 anytime for 24/7 free and confidential support—even if you’re just feeling overwhelmed.
You don’t have to go through this alone, and you don’t have to wait until it gets unbearable to ask for help.
You are worth showing up for—even when it’s hard, even when it’s quiet. 💛
You’re not broken—you’re hurting. And there’s a difference. Please give yourself the same compassion you so freely give to others.
We’re holding space for you. Keep going, even if today that just means breathing and being here. You matter. And you’re not alone. 💛
If you’re looking for gentle tools to support your healing: whether it’s a journal to hold your thoughts, a diffuser to soften your space, or a blanket that feels like a hug.
Here are a few cozy companions I personally recommend.

Self Discovery Journal: A Guided Journal For Building Awareness And Healing
A beautifully designed journal with 100 prompts to help readers unpack trauma, explore gratitude, and reconnect with themselves. Perfect for someone starting their healing journey.

Self Discovery And Reflection Guided Journal For Black Women
Tailored for emotional self-care and spiritual growth, this workbook centers Black women’s experiences and offers gentle guidance toward inner peace.

Aromatherapy for Calm & Clarity
A flame-free reed diffuser that uplifts and clears the mind. Ideal for creating a calming space while journaling or decompressing.

Weighted Blankets for Rest & Regulation
Tailored for emotional self-care and spiritual growth, this workbook centers Black women’s experiences and offers gentle guidance toward inner peace.
Have something you need to get off your chest?
Submit your anonymous message to Unfiltered Diaries and let us hold space with you. No name, no judgment—just real talk and honest reflection.
📓 Unfiltered Diaries – Anonymous Message Box
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